I remember in ye days of olde, I had a coworker. chill guy, not crazy formally educated, but knew a lot. a real self-starter. we did a little personality quiz online one day. part of the quiz was to imagine a cube floating in the desert. what does that cube look like? this was a course was some sort of rudimentary, pop-culture Rorschach test. I digress. I said I saw a mirror. I think about that a lot to this day. the test itself was largely meaningless. many symbols and objects can be canvases for subconscious projections. what I have wondered about myself since then is this: if I reflect things back at people, how do I really know who I am? I’ve spent the better part of a decade studying what it means to have A Human Experience. how people experience different things, what those things mean, how they feel; in essence, I’ve been studying a macro profile of the human psychological experience. fun! interesting! alas, turning myself into a mirror has also left me feeling hollow. I sit around and wonder “what should I do today?”, but I don’t know, because I don’t know who I am without some pre-existing object to reflect. I do not understand my own Self because there is no Other to be compared to and reflected; possibly contorted in some way, but compared and reflected nonetheless. I think this is what people mean when they say you have to be comfortable being alone. if you’re not careful, You will become an amalgamation of other people’s things and traits. and then you’re not you. you’re just other people chopped and screwed.

anyway.

life starts hitting different when you realize that vibes are part of the electromagnetic spectrum and space itself is a fluid medium through which things move. What we think of as “attention” is a signal broadcasted through the radio tower that is a Face.

yes, take that literally. Faces are towers, Attention is a signal broadcasted from that tower. what we allocate out attention to, and how we go about allocating it, directly influences our actions. actions define us, ultimately, which means what we choose to pay attention (allocating attention) to and how we got about paying attention to it (the way we contort our faces to communicate the perception of a given experience) is what ultimately defines us as people.